May Report - Worst run ever in poker life

May had been the worst month ever I had to endure. Nett lost on the table was (1405.92) with only 36698 hands!!!! (YES IT IS ONLY 36698 HANDS)  One of the most painful period ever. Everything did not went smoothly for most of my session. During this period, I became a fortune teller. Every time I put my money in ahead, I will bound to lose on the turn or river and I can literally see it coming before the card was even dealt. I think every poker player will somehow become a fortune teller whenever they are in the downswing.

From the previous post, I had said that I gonna play a bigger volume in May but the downswing had greatly affected on the number of hands I played. Had spoken to a few players and the advise was to take a few days break or move down in stake to get my confidence level back. I took the advise and took one week break. During this break, I was reviewing the hands I had played in May. Taking break did helped, I was playing pretty well for the first two days then came variance once again where coolers were everywhere. Confidence hit rock bottom as I became a ATM on the table. Had a good seat on the table with fish but most of the time I am just giving out money to them. They miraculously hit their 1- 3 outers so often that I just kept reloading and continuously repeat this over and over again. There was one point where I am not sure if I can still beat the game (mental fish). I can obviously beat the fish, just that they run extremely lucky and I was running on the other end.

Pokerstars

PKR

Weeeeeeeee! I am embarrass to post the graph but I cannot just post profit graph.

Total Volume = 36 698 hands (Took about 10+ days break)

Loss = (1405.92) + 380 (VIP + Stellar Reward) = (1025.92) USD

Most serious poker players should feel the same when we are in the downswing. You get very emotional when variance cannot stop coming after you. You lost your confidence and start to question yourself. You just have to endure and play through the swings. I am looking forward to June. This is gonna be a UPSWING month to compensate what I went through in May.

That's all for now. GL on the table and those who are playing in WSOP 2014!